Scared to feel

Disillusioned
with the illusion and confusion
of perfection

Its just a perception
Humans-
Desperate for a connection 
waiting-
for a reaction
to validate their existence
But its all pretense
we're trapped in a fence
Pretending -
that nothing's real
So scared to feel
Living in denial
Locked emotions in a file
Kept and tracked
Cold calculated text

Ode to bug

Tiny little bug sitting on my page
quiet-
Meditative
Do you have rage?
Through your eyes-
Unknown little bug-
How does creation seem?
Insignificant?
Or meant to be?

Open to suggestions

Always Life and Death
Opposing resisting forces
Combined in the same breath
Everday-
Connected to both
Everlasting afterlife they pray
Yet consume and destroy
-What a paradox_
We are nothing but a toy
Looking for cheap delight
Nothing but ultimate distraction
Oh Oblivious blight-
Oh Humanity-
Obssed with being right
You forget-
Nothing is ever Black and White

Clay warrior

Clay warrior made from hand
Fashioned to fight
For a stranger's Land
Clay warrior-
Painted with blood
Hardened by fires of War
Forged by a brotherhood
Long dead but not forgotten
Clay warrior-
Shattered and remade
by the whim of a furor
His faith has been laid
Clay warrior-
Fallen, lonely soldier
The world on your shoulder
Sitting on the edge

Lies to life lessons

Fill their head with lies
Deny education
Tell them they cannot see
You will be their eyes
Repress, oppress and depress
hopeless-
waiting in vain
to be free from their chain
waiting in vain
for a promise long broken
fill their head with lies
control the mind of the youth
suck their energy dry
leach-parasite-disease
telll them they can have gold
then hand them dirt
tell them it is El Dorado
-its nothing but a shadow-
disillusioned youth-
waiting in vain
for a promised life
already dead

Ode to Alyssa and Guyana

i miss u.
do u still love me?
am i still ur friend? 
am i in the back of your mind? 
Times spent remembering, listlessly wondering what if
times we laughed like we were five
thats when i was alive. 
dead leaves, bare trees crying for the sun
controlled emotions, no free motion to express, i feel repressed
dance naked and free beneath the mango tree
in the rain with no thought but now the adult world has trapped my youth
stressed, i've regressed into dark depths of swollen demon eyes
wondering if i'll ever be kissed by the sun again

Vampire Lover

sadly-
staring at the changing moon 
Vampire lover-
Wake me soon
Sinking sucked underworld
hold my hand
untill the spring flower's unfurled
My lover-
Hold me close and be kind
The night's not too long you'll find
The day is at a loss
Sadly-
Staring at the changing moon
Vampire lover-
Wake me soon