Attention to Intention

You knew I was wild
But you wanted to play
You liked my attention
When I started to dance
Only for you -
You had another intention

Danced with me for a while
Knowing I was wild
Pulled me down - fed me your dreams
Till I let my vision drift
But you liked to play
You liked my attention

I made you feel special
Cause I danced for you
You let me think it was real
When I helped you heal
But you liked to play
You liked my attention

You've broken my heart
Taken me apart -
I know it was not
Your intention -
But you liked to play
You just liked my attention

Gleaning meaning

Some like sanitised meaning
Never truly gleaning
The mystic soul-
They lock their beating hearts to ideals of cold and measured moments
Wildness without relent-
Torments the narrow mind
How can fire be kind?

Decisions based on proven facts-
Fear-driven tacts
And man's unnatural care -
Lacks courage of a soulful tear,
Two beats locked in arrythmic sway
Yearning to cut/ and break away
Tied in hypothetised metric steps
The cost to cut and run too steep

No hope, no witness, no reward

You've gotta love it through the grime-
Even when no glory is to be had
There are those who like to shine
When other lights are on
But those that twinkle-
When the darkness overwhelms
With no hope, with no witness, with no reward
Well-
They are the ones who love through time

You've gotta love it through the grime-
Even when no glory is to be had
There are those who love to boast
Only when they know they're heard
But those that whisper-
When the silence rings
With no hope, with no witness, with no reward
Well-
They are the ones who love through time

Easy Smile

You had that easy smile

Laid back style -

I seemed to think

You looked only at me

But if I did blink

My opened eyes would see

The easy way your glance

Moved with passing whisps'

Choreographed dance

Magic, mad man

Swirling Memories

It swirls within –

A bitter sweet mixing

Of memories I’d rather not recall

Here – comes night fall

Dark blanket of silence lays

Heavy upon the one who pays

The price of suffocated joy

Emotions raw – played like a toy

A weak rebellion squashed

As those who ‘know’ speak in hushed

Quick whispers of judgement

She turns her eye down again

In all that she found pain

What a fool to think

That one of her ilk

Would stand by her side 

In the upcoming storm to aide

How easy it is to claim bravery

In the shelter of your morality

Sunset fades

Sunset fades the light
The memory in my mind
Plays - again - on repeat
It too fades with passing time

Something about the night
Ceases to seem kind
And the tangled sheet
Mirror the knotted grime

That I follow - trying for right
But twisted, playing shadows blind
Render my soul obsolete
Try and I cannot climb

Exhausting, draining fight
I float to try unwind
The world is dead beat
No longer in it's prime

You hurt me, my friend

I think I know what gnaws at my heart
My friend - I  opened up a part
Of my soul, left closed for so long
Only for you to ask if I knew it was wrong

My friend -
You -
Who claim to be a defender of women
A counsellor of those in pain
I thought you'd react different
From all those others I told

You threw the guilt and shame I carried
Right back onto my burdened -
Anxiety ridden self - that little shadow
Of a scared little girl who still lives in fear

Unrelenting passive aggressive comments
Like a weight on my mind-
I am consumed once again by sadness
Over a battle I thought I had won